When you finally get settled into bed
But then it’s just like:
shit
2 years. 2 years that i was on and off with you. How can it go from us talking every single day to now.. youve fucked me over so much i just forgave you ever single time. Everytime i said i was done i knew i really wasnt, i just told myself that cause i knew i deserved better. But its like how am i gonna say i deserve better when i didnt want to change that? I wanted to be with you. I accepted all of your flaws..and SHIT that was alot. But we just clicked. Up and down on that rollar coaster for so long, that i got used to it. Sounds bad, but so true. Even after all of the girls you got with i STILL wanted to be with you. I just forgave you and started disliking the girls.. when really i shouldve been done right then and there. Now that i said i was done this time, i REALLY meant it. those 2 weeks you hit me up and i wasnt responding.. i loved it, made you realize i wasnt coming back. But now i almost regret not talking to you because now your with .. HER. I literally dread seeing you 2 together. It kills me so much and i just have to act like im okay. I have to act like im happy. I have to act like i dont even see you guys. You dont even realize who she is. But ima letchu find out on your own. Time KILLS. Cause i know its gonna take SO LONG to get over this feeling. its like..i was the one who said im done but now im missin you.. and you just seem completely happy. is it cause she gives you what you want? Its like why am i gonna miss somethin like that. But its those memories.. like damn. When things were bad they were BAD but when they were good, i mean they were AMAZING. I feel like i cant share that with anyone else. You know me and i know you. we get eachother. I know im not gonna marry you and shit but Young love sucks..especially your fist love. and i can definitley say your my first love. I always catch myself thinking about you and i HAVE to stop myself. It may sound selfish that i dont want you to be with anyone else.. but its true. I CANT see you with anyone else. You were mine:( my baby, my boo. Now that things wont ever be the same and i was done.. its like where do i go from here. I compare too much . I guess only time can tell, meanwhile i have to suck it up and deal with it cause theres nothing i can do now. Its done.
